7/31 - Running

I've been plagued by a headache for quite a while today, so I'm going to make this post as quick as possible, so I can put on some sweats and relax in my bed.

Sometimes I feel like I've been running non-stop for the past four years. Constantly on the go between places. Never in a place long enough to feel like I was truly settled there. I spent months at a time in Waterloo - but never really felt like it was 'home'. I liked living there, but I always knew that it was temporary. Being home in Regina always felt good, but I was only over there for short periods of time - a couple weeks up to a maximum of 2 months - before I'd set off to my next destination. During these four years, my feet have returned to places that I love dearly, and gone to new places that I also came to love.

And it's been good. I wouldn't change anything about these past four years for anything. From having to move away to go to school to my times at home to my travels around the globe - they've all shaped me into the person that I am today.

But truth be told, I'm tired. Four years is a long time to be running. I feel like I don't know how to not run anymore, how to be settled in one place. Don't get me wrong, I love running, and in some ways, I'm the kind of person who I think will always be a bit unsettled about the idea of being settled. But I also long for the chance to truly be a part of a community again. To invest myself in the people there, and have them invest themselves in me.

The running continues for a couple more months - they will be as crazy as ever. Beyond August, I don't know. The running may continue, or I may have the chance to settle down for a little bit, preparing me for my next opportunity to run again.